Dear Reader,
This book currently contains my deepest feelings and thoughts—raw emotions poured onto these pages from a heart that has loved in silence for nine years.
What you hold now is just the beginning. The complete book, with all the memories, moments, and stories we've shared, will be updated soon.
For now, feel what my heart has been carrying all these years.
~Joo
My love for you is like a candle that never fades, a flame that neither time nor distance could extinguish. For nine years, my heart has whispered your name in the silence of the night. Even when the world moved on, even when the seasons changed, my love for you remained—untouched, unshaken, eternal.
You were never just a person to me—you were my universe. Every star in my sky was named after you, every breeze carried your fragrance, and every raindrop reminded me of your touch. Even today, as I walk alone, I find you in everything—your laughter echoes in the wind, and your absence lingers in my every breath.
Loving you is like holding onto the sharpest thorn, yet I never let go. I would rather bleed with your memory than heal without you. Every time I see something beautiful, I think of you. Every time I close my eyes, I dream of you. Do you ever think of me? Do you ever remember the love that once held you so close? I do. Every second, every day.
I never needed you to love me back to keep loving you. My love does not demand a return; it exists simply because it is meant to. Even when you walked away, my heart chose to stay behind. I have never resented your absence; I have only embraced the emptiness you left behind, filling it with memories of us.
If only you knew how much I still love you. If only you knew that every time I close my eyes, I see you. If only you knew that my love did not fade when you left—it only grew stronger, deeper, more unbreakable. My heart does not know how to forget; it only knows how to love, even when it is alone in its love.
I have loved you in ways words will never capture. My love was never about grand gestures—it was in the way I remembered your favorite songs, the way I looked for you in crowded places, the way I smiled at your happiness even when it was not with me. It is a love written in silence, in longing, in a forever that only I carry.
Years have passed, but my heart still beats to the rhythm of your name. I have seen the world change, I have watched people come and go, yet my love for you has remained untouched—like a song that never ends, like a flame that refuses to die. No matter how much I try, I cannot let you go, because you are not just a memory—you are a part of my soul.
I have written a thousand letters to you in my heart, but I have never sent them. I have spoken to you in my dreams, but never in reality. I have held you in my thoughts for so long that you have become a part of me. But love, in its truest form, does not always need to be spoken. Sometimes, it just exists—quietly, painfully, beautifully.
This is not a goodbye, for my love for you does not know how to end. This is simply a confession of a heart that has loved, that continues to love, and that will love until its last beat. Even if we walk on different paths, even if my name fades from your lips, I will forever carry yours in my soul. You are the love I will never regret, the dream I will never wake up from.
If loving you kills me, then let me die—because a life without loving you is no life at all. And if love is meant to be selfless, then let my love for you be the purest proof of it.
Forever yours, in silence and in longing.
"And so, I wait—endlessly, faithfully, eternally."
~Joo
"Love is not about being together every day. It's about holding someone in your heart even when they're miles away."
If these words touched your heart, know that somewhere, someone is waiting, loving, and hoping.
May you find the courage to express your love before it's too late.
With love and hope,
Joo